My bright future/fortune....

Today after school,

I. was. starving.

Deleriously so. I couldnt stand it anymore and I jumped in my car and drove to panda as fast as I could. Like, lightspeed. When I got there....I realized there WAS no drive through and that I had no shoes. Eff.

....My second trip to panda was successful though. I thoroughly enjoyed my kids meal and then THIS was the fortune in my cookie:

"You will have full contentment by summers end."

.....%*@# Yeahhh!!! Bring on the summer. I will probably make tons of beautiful memories and lots of money and meet the love of my life...mmm mm mm..

Can't wait.

bad day?

You know those days where you have so many feelings built up...if you even begin to attempt to describe to someone what you're feeling, you just burst into tears? When you just want to run collapse in your mom's arms and just sob on her shoulder and not have to explain anything?

Sometimes I have days when I get so frustrated with myself and my life. Sometimes all my little worries seem huge. Somedays I look around and can only think about all the things I dont have, or all the things I'm not. I think about the big scheme of things, and where I'm at in relation to where I want to be, and I get discouraged. Somedays I feel like I'm failing... On those days, in my moment of desperation, when I can't get to my mom...

I just watch this. No matter how many times I've watched it, it always makes me feel hopeful, and brings a better perspective. I adore this man. He's wonderful. I hope I get the chance to hug him someday, and thank him for this.

Please ignore the completely awful music in the background, I couldnt find one without it. Its really super annoying....but try to look past it and hear what he has to say.

Guaranteed cure for a bad day.




(ps. my last attempt to post a video was kiiind of a fail so, I hope this works. fingers crossed)

My Dear Friend JCall.

I watched this over and over all night, and my heart ached. Ugh. Missions are hard.

But, I'm proud of my studly friends serving throughout the world.
Cannot WAIT for the day I get to hear this kid sing in real life again. :)

Crimson Ground in China
May 28, 2009 8:44

Seee Ya.

Dear Six,

Today I burned all your letters.
It felt like moving on for good. :) Thanks for back then.

Yours no longer,

Me

My Wonderful Friends

This weekend I went out to dinner with my mom and sister and two of my closest, oldest friends.We sat at our table at Zuppa's, (yum! wish we had one in Logan..) we chatted about this and that... and eventually our conversation turned to conference, and the gospel..and our gratitude for the truth... And I thought to myself, this is so not your average girl's night dinner convo, right?

Wrong. My friends are just the greatest. and It was so normal.

As I sat back and listened, I thought to myself, This is exactly why we're best friends!! I love that I have friends who are so excited and enthusiastic about the gospel. I love that I can look to their example as I work at becoming the kind of woman I want to be. I don't know where I'd be without their guiding influence in my life. I'm so grateful.

I'm grateful for roommates who teach me what it means to be a real friend and open your heart to the people around you. Who are constantly lifting and encouraging one another. Who live the gospel, and don't just study it. Who show me everyday what it means to have charity and to be selfless. Who are so caring and compassionate and quick to give of themselves and their talents. Who are so creative, and stylish, and hilarious, and brilliant, and bring so much joy into my life...

Eeek, this is turning so cheesy but I dont know how to express what I'm feeling. Bleh...I'm such an amateur blogger.

I just, really love my friends. I feel awed. Every single one of them has some amazing quality that is uniquely their own that I envy and admire and wish I could master myself.. I feel so lucky just to be around them, and rub shoulders with such remarkable women.

To whomever is responsible for placing these fabulous people in my life, thank you, thank you, thank you. It means the world to me.

Finally..

"Silence isolates. Strained silent periods cause wonderment, hurt, and most often, wrong conclusions" -Marvin J. Ashton

It was so great to finally get some things off my chest recently. I needed it. I needed to understand and to be understood. I needed reassurance. I needed to feel at peace. I shouldn't have avoided that conversation for so long...