To No One in Particular...

Recently I've been reflecting on my past relationships... You should know, ours is the only one I ever really count. You are still the only one I've ever given any significant piece of my heart to. When people ask me to think back to my happiest moments, I still think of some of our moments.

 Today I am sure we are exactly where we need to be. I don't know if you'd believe me if I told you, but I really am glad things turned out how they have. I am so happy you found your intended. I think you two are perfect for each other. I even think she's perfect for you in ways I never was. I'm sure you'd question my sincerity if I ever actually summoned up the courage to say it to you, but truly, I feel 'happy you're happy.' That's all I'll ever want for you.

I'm content with the lives we're living and the choices we made. But I miss the way things were somedays. I'm still so grateful for those experiences.


Thank you for all the times you cheered me on from the sidelines. You made me feel like I could do anything. Thanks for overlooking my stubbornness. You made me feel like I was worth the wait. Thank you for making my heart race. Thanks for buying me flowers, for making long trips to see me, and making a special effort to surprise me. I felt like I was living out a fairytale. Thank you for all the times you tickled my back and played with my hair on the drive home. I've never felt more adored and cared for, or more perfectly content. Thanks for noticing and appreciating so many of the little things. Thanks for the talk in your backyard after that fight with my dad. Thanks for letting me hide behind you after I fell on my face getting on that ride (in front of alll those people.) Thanks for refusing to let go of me on the tube at the lake. I always felt so confident with you by my side. Thanks for taking my hand and calming me down when I almost lost it in that haunted house. For holding me after Chandler died. Thank you for making me a part of your family. I will always love them, I wonder if they know that. Thank you for helping me make that sign for the parade. Thank you for always, always trying to do what was best for me. Thanks for that time I had cramps and you got me a cup of ice at the theater. You were always so concerned for my well-being--so desperate to put me at ease and make me comfortable. Thanks for taking me to all those concerts. Thanks for all the times you wrestled with me. Thanks for the food fights and the impromptu water fights. Thank you for the way you made me laugh. The joy you brought into my life is immeasurable. Thanks for taking the risks and making the leaps of faith when I hesitated. It meant more than I can say. Thanks for being an endless source of encouragement and support. Thanks for inspiring me and motivating me. Thanks for coming to me for advice.

To this day, I'm so grateful for the way you loved and respected me. I'm so grateful for the way you still loved, cared for, and protected me even after everything fell apart. You are one of the most wonderful men I have ever known. Is it still okay to admit how much these experiences meant to me? You are not the love of my life, but you taught me what to look for and never to settle. Can you understand how grateful I am for you? I hope someday you will. On days like today, I don't feel bitter. I don't feel remorseful. If I could go back and re-live my past I wouldn't change a thing. On days like today, I'm just grateful for the life I've lived...and even more excited for the life ahead of me.

And I guess I have you to thank for that..go figure.

.Seven.

Am I sitting around on the interwebz just wasting time? Of course I is, Ms. Booth. Here's 7 fun facts about moi for my 3 adoring readers and all my friends in Stickham...

1. I want to have a pinata at my wedding. And a legit outdoor concert.

2. I love mint milanos and sour patch kids. (not together, duh) And Martinelli's Sparkling Apple Cider.

3. Most recent goal: trying to be less cynical/critical/judgemental of others. Recently I've noticed I think a lot of mean things. Too often I assume the worst of people, too often I jump to my own conclusions. I watched this today and it kind of restored my love for humanity at large and reminded me what we're capable of. People are wonderful.

4. I ran out of Burt's Bees a week ago and its DESTROYING me.

5. When my close friends/family leave on missions I save a voicemail from them on my phone so I can still hear their voices every once in a while during those 2 long years. You know that awkward moment when you're around sketchy company and you feel nervous..so you pull out your phone and pretend you're having a conversation? I'm just listening to these old voicemails...

6.  Tomorrow I'm going to sing/play the ukulele for a restaurant full of strangers.

7. I'm currently listening to "Makin' Out" by Pomplamoose, "I Want You Back" by the Civil Wars, and "Postcards From Italy " by Beirut on repeat. Those 3 over and over and over..

Tag: Kelsey, Brooke, uhhh guess I need more blogfriends?

Thank you Ms. Tarbet.

I don't know if she knows this, but I've listened to this song approximately 739284302 times since Brooke showed it to me. It's one of the most beautiful things my ears have ever heard.

ps. Dear blogging wizards, how do I get my picture up there to be less blurry? Please help.

Perfect Day

Its been forever since I blogggged, so here's some updates for all my blog friends..

School is back in session. Logan is dreamy as ever in the fall.

 I finally get to live with BT, its gonna be beautiful. I love her. Always have, and always will.

Yesterday I spent the day out on the lake with some friends--kind of a last hurrah to send out the summer. I cant think of anywhere else in the whole world I would have rather been yesterday. Pineview was gorgeous all day--the weather was phenom. The drive up through ogden canyon took my breath away. Spent all day on the lake laughing and listening to music and just hanging out with people I love in a beauutifull place. We drove home right before sunset--I was all alone singing in my car to some sweeeet sweet music and the sunlight was streaming in through my open windows and blinding me so I couldnt see a thing, and I felt like I was smiling from the inside out. I started laughing out loud, alone in my car...because I just couldn't contain how happy I felt.

I'm gonna miss days like this.

I hope there's more to come...my friends keep getting married and dropping off the face of  the planet.

 OMEN: my two besties both went to weddings this weekend, and BOTH caught the bouquet....fml.

This just might be my favorite song of all time..

I will never ever, ever get sick of this song.

Chills.

Every.

Time.

Lets go see her in concert this month? Mmk.

Love. My. Friends.

"No woman is more persuasive, no woman has greater influence for good, no woman is a more vibrant instrument in the hands of the Lord than a woman of God who is thrilled to be who she is. ---I like to think of us as the Lord's secret weapon." -Sheri Dew

Summer in Pictures



Spent the first week of summer in Powell with some funny kids.

 

My dearest roommate Olivia got married! So did my lovely little cousin Logan.
Being a bridesmaid is fun to do, to do, to do.
I really love weddings.






I spend my days in the sun teaching little ninos to swim with my bestie.
 Greatest gig ever? I think so.

So far this summer, Ferg & I have gone to see Noah and the Whale and Sondre Lerche.
NATW: was fantastic as expected.
Sondre Lerche: kiiiiind of a let down
Hopefully I will have more concerts to report on later...



Another round of Lake Powell with the Fam over 4th of July weekend.

Check out that sexy robotic leggg!





Dan came to Lake Powell round 2.
He's kiiiind of hilarious and we had a lot of fun.



Annual Bear Lake trip with Dad's ward.

Pickleville Playhouse is always a highlight.



Annnd ofcourse the beloved cardboard box boat race..



I'm embarrassed to admit how long it took me to upload all these, and I still cant figure out how to make them bigger or get rid of the little frames though...so...hope this is enough for now.

Summer is wonderful. I'm a lucky, lucky girl.
over & out.